Ya know whats funny bro, as im standing there listening to what a fucking trainwreck was going on last week,,, one of the first things that came to my mind was your face laughing your ass off. I am so pathetic. But this is true. Many things ive tried to do throughout my life have really taken a big left turn on me. Lots of it i was doing to myself, but i own that. Many things were not of myself. Some very key moments that sent me down an alley instead of the skyway were very much not of my control cuz of one thing or another, so i just tried to make the best of what was left at those times. And dont believe everything you hear, ive always made myself an easy target, and some people are just not able to own up to the truth.Some of them even went on to huge success by the kind and sacrificial choices i made, ( not knowing they were sacrificial at the time) but used me as a nice platform to make big friends along the way, so when they got everything they could get out of me jumped ship on to one that wasnt sinking. Then theres th ed guy who just wasnt satisfied with the returns on what he was also using me to accomplish. Cuz lets face it, as well as these guys did their jobs and kept it together, most wouldnt have had what it takes on their own to gain the respect and integrity we got with the songs and how i sang them.Anyways thats all hindsight and done. Its been really frustrating knowing what im capable of but for whatever reasons never got to find out. YET. But replying to your comment thst im sensitive like a girl, your right. Im already beating myself up bloody with all the ” if i only woulda’s” compiled with all those huge black veiny dicks including my own in my ass, then theres the magnifying glasses like your thing, and those other similar platforms spawned from yours that made me feel and look like a joke, and though its a small insignificant pond yo be swimming in it was still the only pond i was able to get to and its already filled with the jealous and judgemental dudes who cant wait to relish in seeing Dv and his cocky shit talking arrogance fall flat on his face, and then throw the ” hes got so much talent and just throws it away and sabotages himself, and if that were me, bla bla bla, .But that shit is everywhere i turn till i got to the point of litterally a phobia of leaving my domicile where im safe with my drugs and crying in a fuckit bucket. It took sooo long to find myself in a position where i had no choice but to finally get the help i avoided all those years, the therapy, the legal insentive to continue the whole clusterfuck of phases of being gutted to the studs and put back together properly, completely down to the little detail shit like seemless crown molding and the right shade of handles on the cabinets. I mean this was intence grueling bootcamp for a guy who basically grew up and lived his whole life like a wild animal, answering to no one, and had the celebrity taste still in my mouth knowing i got there if just for a minute, but from absolutely nothing and no one, no encouraging parents, no christmas preasnt gtrs, shoes bought at the grocery store etc.. but determination and hunger made me whittle that desire to a sharp ass little knife that could slice through most anything in need of slicing to get to where i needed an knew i was gonna go. Then came the huge tornado that whirled me accross so many vital places that i really still need to go through to do things right. I knew i was cheapening and going against my instincts and integrity, but who turns down an offer like that when ya came from where i did. It just became a chain reaction of steps in the wrong direction down to the point where the character was driving the boat, and the actual me was very seldom present. I knew all this while it was happening but i kept being able to deliver, so that was good enuff to just roll with being already that far off the track. Man i couldnt stand most of the other music in the circle i was in, i couldnt stand the way we all looked, i didnt know how to play the game and i was letting everyone but me make the decisions cuz i trusted them with my life. I mean whos gonna let something bad happen to me? Im the machine that keeps the train rollin. I just became oblivious and started seeing it all fall apart along with myself. I really thought theres no way im gonna live through all this debauchery and drugs n booze and whores, so just play it out now, itll be over soon and none of it will matter anymore. For some reason i was watching all these guys and friends and piers dying off like flys and im still here. How the fuck is that possible. Next to derek im supposedly the biggest mess of them all. That went on and on till i was actually trying to kill myself and put myself out of my misery. And man i tell ya ive known miserable sooo hard and cold that i couldnt wish on any worst enemy. Even you. Haha. Cutting to the chase, here i am 56, and the best i ever been.

Hahaha i ran out of charachters. Anyways. Im doing everything right now, im driving my own boat, im away from all that shit and those assholes like chip and his clowny fake idealisms and bullshit that comes out of his mouth,( and its all bullshit, the guys the best bass player, but hes an idiot, a patronizing self entitled goofball who sprays his nasty scent on everything he can and trys to claim it as his.That guy never wrote anything. He didnt produce those records, he didnt even know a string patch from his toy organ to his own ass hole. He sat on the phone smoking pot holding his thumbs up after id nail another killer part, then he would sneak in and fuck it all up behind my back going in to mix shit that he had no idea what or why anthing was tracked and where it needed to sit.He snuck pieces of shit songs of his that i never even heard before till i got a copy of MY fucking records. I still salvaged the best i could, and they still managed to be great records, but no thanks to him. Hes a fucking idiot that thinks hes a genius and thats dangerous.Btw if you wanna print this i dont even give a fuck. Fuck that guy and his red rubber nose.

DV. ( the king of power pop)